Rainy Days and Mondays Get Me Down
Also? Fridays when I have a ton of work to do and have come down with a nasty cold. Blech.
Also? For some reason? The fact that another woman at work is pregnant. She hasn't told us yet, but I saw that she was wearing maternity pants yesterday and she's definitely starting to show. I'm really happy for her. Babies are exciting! But for some reason it made me cry. I think I'm jealous.
We're not even trying yet, and it still kind of scares the crap out of me. In fact, the longer we wait, the more frightened about becoming a mom I get. I'm scared of the pregnancy, I'm scared of being a mom, I'm scared of how it will change my relationship with my husband, I'm scared of its effects on my bank account, and I'm scared about how it will affect my body. I'm really just scared. To top it all off, we're thinking about moving far away within the next year, so I don't know if I'd want to do that hugely pregnant or with a newborn.
But I'm definitely jealous, and every time I see a baby I positively melt. I think I'm ready to be a mom, no matter how scared of it I am. Now I just have to convince Aaron. Seeing how he reacts to babies lately, I don't think it will be too hard.